Thursday, February 23, 2012

Puzzling...

I am not sure how I've been managing it, but I have been able to push thru my cycle and workout regardless of the pain and everything with it all! I've been right proud of myself that I have been able to do so as this has always been one of my obstacles to getting fit.
I could not suppress my sweet tooth and ate a bad dinner/snack combo yesterday at a mexican restaurant but not too too bad. I woke in pain and last night was not feeling too well for having eating a couple of those greasy things.
I know I just can't eat that stuff any longer, else I will suffer and pay for it. My stomach just can't handle it at all.
But you know what? I learned that my taste buds are already changing as I was drawn to the freshly sliced strawberry and rather that than the chocolate cake which I only have one bite of. I even didn't want the ice cream. Of course it was heaven to dip the strawberry into the chocolate syrup and whipped cream. Ok, so I haven't totally annihilated my sweet tooth but it's a step in the right direction!!

So that was wild!

Today of course went back to eating really well and I am still feeling a bit off but hope that things may right themselves over the course of the next few days. I am still very excited about moving from the yellow disk to the blue one! I haven't done that in so long, not since Vegas and so it is very exciting to see that I am really doing this! I am going to complete Power90!!

I think the next big hump will be that trip to San Antonio in April. A small obstacle will be the Ren Faire when it starts up but I am sure I can workout in the early hours before I am to leave for the Faire on Saturday mornings and so that will not be much of a problem at all.
It will be the trip that will be tough. I will take my food with me at least and the Power90 dvd as well.
I will be so close to finishing the whole program, I know I will not even want to mess that up! I will be gone from a Wed to Sunday. So that means Wednesday, Thurs, Fri, and Sat, 4 days of needing to work out and to eat fairly well. Taking Shakeology is a snap however what with the mixer cup they give you with it! And then I just premeasure in small snack sized ziplock bags and take my peppermint oil with me with the dropper and of course my snacks and the sharp knife for the apple which I usually get at my destination. So I should be ok with that particular trip.

I will take measurements for sure and pics as well on Sunday. Not sure how good or bad it will be but I know I need to before I get too far along. I want to really see the difference from having finished this program. Part of me has thought about doing another round of Power90 before I start P90X but I really want to get that program and give it a go so I will and see what I can do with it.

I may do two rounds of it so I can really get into shape and get strong enough to do all they want you to be able to do. So we'll see how it goes!

I should morph myself when I am done tho' and see the difference! That would be interesting!

Later on today, I'll be doing the Sweat 1-2. I still have been trying to get it done in the mornings but it's not been working out that way yet. Still working on that.

It's helped me alot to just sit and type here tho', just get out my thoughts and encourage myself to do this and push play!

Still gotta get some proper rest! Work it in somehow!

Monday, February 20, 2012

Another Test!

I was going to take measurements yesterday but figured I had better wait as Saturday my cycle began and I don't want to take false readings of me puffed up or holding any water.
This is another test however to keep on working out despite my cycle. They have become very bad lately and irregular so I just can't tell what will happen. I do know that I will be working out regardless today and just waiting on the wash to get my whites done so then I will go on up and get Sculpt 1-2 in.
It is just the Sculpt so after that and an appt later on today for the cats, I will be resting. Hopefully the worst of things will be over today.

This is the start of my 4th week of Power90!! I am sooo excited! The final week of the yellow disk!! On the 29th, I'll be starting the blue disk. I can't wait! Its just so amazing to me that I am actually going to do this! I can feel it for certain! I know, I know, I have said this many times and even said, "THIS TIME" it is different!

Famous last words, eh?

But it is happening! I have done so well so far.
But no excuses, cycle or no! I am going to do this!

Still holding at 193.5 yesterday...today saw 194 but I am not worried about that. I ate fairly well yesterday, just dinner was a bit off with one slice of the homemade bread and a bowl of homemade chicken noodle soup. I didn't have alot but I also had some chocolate covered pretzels to try to qualm the muscle cramps that were just playing havoc with me all day yesterday, coupled with good ol' Advil!

I am still feeling really good tho', despite all the intermittent pain. I feel lighter and stronger! I was up a bit late last night so a bit sleepy but I'll get some rest later on today.

I do have to say the best part of this go-round, has been that I am not deflating! As the fat is going, the muscles are increasing! That is just so exciting. I am still fully planning on ordering P90X when I am close to finishing Power90. I think it will be greatly motivating too to have a new shiny program and probably supplements with it and other new items as well! I am expecting it to really kick my butt and be very challenging! Heck, even the blue disk, the Sweat/Sculpt 3-4 should be a challenge as well as it goes for a longer period of time than the yellow Sweat/Sculpt 1-2 does. I will have to start to get up at 6 am then to get it completed to be sure I can fit it into my day. Besides, I will have to do that anyway on Saturdays come April when the Faire starts and I will not want to miss any of my workouts. April will be my last 30 days of the Power90! That means P90X will have to get ordered in April to be sure I get it in time.
I was thinking of being a coach, although it does cost money each month from what I have seen. It still kinda bugs me that I did not want a coach but got one assigned to me. At least I am not being bugged.
I know not many are really reading this and that's ok to me, because I am writing it all mostly for me.
To keep my motivation going and give myself some encouragement. If someone comes along and finds it and reads it and gets some motivation as well or gets that lil nudge to get them to keep pushing play and exercising, I am glad! :)
I am also using this as a way to document the ups and downs of it all. The full on battle for me and I know for many other women this can be too. I still hear my one friend telling me how many years I've been doing this and fighting this and why don't I just let it go and give in and be happy where I am at?
And I would, except for one big reason is that this is not healthy for me.
I don't want cholesterol meds.
I don't want to face a medicine cabinet full of drugs I have to take each morning. Bad enough I am having to take vitamins. I hate pills. Bad enough just having to take the Advil at times like this weekend for cramps.
I really dislike pills.

I am also wanting to wear better and nicer clothes and look better. I don't want to be skinny but I really don't want to be this weight either. I don't want to be model-skinny or Barbie top-heavy. But I would like to at least cast a nice enough silhouette where I feel good about myself. I love who I have become on the inside, I just want to have the outside match it a bit better! It's why I wouldn't want to go down to 125, that's just too thin. 150-160 would be fine and I am really not that far from there!! That's what is so exciting about it all!

I really am not! :)

So I know I can do this with some effort and in the meantime, I am eating healthier than ever and taking better care of me. You have to start sometime and looking at my past history, I've had a lot of starts!! I just need to finish and not fall back to the same ol bad habits. Stop the yo-yoing. Change my lifestyle and be more active. That's key.

So....the plan for now is Power90 and walking at the Ren Faire. I'll be taking a cooler with me for bottled water and probably my snacks to keep cold until I get in at the faire. I figure if I get up at 6 am, workout for an hour, come down, shower, have breakfast by say...7:30 and then start to get dressed, snack at 9:30 and then by 10:30 to drive down there and puts me there at 11:30 which would be time for my lunch(shakeology). I could take it down with me in the cooler and then drink it just before I go in and carry my next snack for 1:30 inside the gate with me plus, I'll be having that at the wine tasting too. A special note to make sure I take some crackers with me for that as well. So if I leave by 4:30, home by 5:30, I should be able to make my dinner in time.

That takes care of April and I order P90X and I would start that then hmm, I believe they say for you to take like a week or so break before starting a new program. Still, that puts P90X start date in May.
I know that will be another full on 90 day program and that takes me to August nearly. Finishing right about vacation time. Good break!

Busy spring and summer but it will be so worth the effort tho' come vacation time! To walk down the boardwalk at the shore and just feel so grand! Even to be on the beach and know I don't look like or feel like a beached whale!! Awesome!

I want some definition! I want a silhouette of some angles and curves and not a blob with legs.

But most of all....I want to be healthy. As trim as I can get myself. I don't want a body-builder physique nor to have muscles bulging. Just to remove some of the middle thickening would be good for me. :)

No cholesterol meds, only vitamins & supplements.


Healthier...happier, me! :)

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Finishing Week 3!

Wow! Such an accomplishment to have finished week 3! I saw 193.5 this morning and was just so excited! It felt good to go workout earlier and get all sweaty and know that tomorrow I can rest and that today completed week 3 of Power90!
I am so excited and could feel that things are really moving around and I am getting so much stronger and feeling lighter all the time!

Of course my cycle just began but I will push thru it no matter what! I will not stop this time!! I can't and I won't! I would have to really injure myself before I would stop.
I feel as though I am on the brink of actually completing this program and I could not be happier! I will have pics taken tomorrow and do measurements as well again and clock all that in.
I know the pics are a bit late but hey, better late than never! :)
I was thinking of maybe waiting til I hit my 30 day mark but I am not sure. I know I will need to take them at 30 and 60 and then again when I am done on the 90th day!

I can't begin to say how grand it feels tho' to know that I am doing it. To see that I can and have done this!! AND! On top of that, not only am I committing to it, dedicating myself to it, but I know that at the end of these 90 days, that I will be so much more healthier than I have ever been!!

So tomorrow is measurement time and rest! :)